6/11/2008
This is how I like to spend my spare time…
Minutes ago crossed on my mind some thoughts. Quite odd thoughts I dare say but somehow influenced by you. My life it’s been not easy. I don’t know if I am just unlucky or I might take it as another test on my life. I have been cycling to get to work and back. And I am fortunate eventually if it doesn’t rain. It’s so unpleasant to do cycling under heavy rain and unbelievable wind. Perhaps merciless!
All I got from that is hard work and minimum wage per hour. I don’t know if I should proceed with it, I am getting powerless!
But what crossed on my mind out of a sudden before I have started writing these words…
Two years ago, I had a fantastic experience. I moved to London to live my life there with you, even though for three months. And we actually did it baby… in a fucking massive city, where power is hidden by massive buildings. It was rather nice experience!
Then again, together we drove over a thousand kilometers, to get in a country eventually unfamiliar to me. Anyway together we had built a home again. And it’s pointless to point out my mistakes; I believe I had to live it like I did. I was not prepared, neither you..!
Today a girl walks in the burger shop and she was wearing your perfume Light Blue. When that fragrance got in my brain.. Oh!! Merciful heavens, what a fantastic feeling! Instantly thereafter I came back to reality and my eyes turned sad…
I don’t want to say what I felt but it was rather pleasure. When I looked up to her face afterwards there was neither blonde hair, nor green eyes or some misplaced freckles.
I don’t know how you are! I don’t want to be cheating on your relationship and shouldn’t be writing this; perhaps I should consider my attitude whether I am about to disturb your happiness. I don’t want you to fell my bad feelings and moments and waste 30 seconds of your time to remember my name…
I certainly don’t know about future but I feel happy if I imagine of it. I have some beliefs that perhaps enforce my attitude…I don’t see you there as I didn’t unseen you one year ago. Well the truth is that I would marry you straight away and make you mother of my babies, but we are not here for weddings, are we?
Well enjoy your life as fast as you can because earth is always orbiting around sun, and moon some days shows off…
writing!
