Frases do coração

09/04/2011

Poesias guardadas

em frases do coração

vontades inacabadas

ao longo da minha mão

páginas de um diário

esquecido na multidão

ao longo de um calendário

ele, o alto anão

no reino dos persas passado

ele de escudo e lança na mão

venceu esse “Deus” malvado

salvando o seu povo da escravidão

Com o destino traçado 

de dia na escuridão

ele foi assassinado 

ao largo do rio Jordão

num mundo que não é seu

por vezes pede perdão

de braços estendidos para o céu

em frases do coração

Our Era

19/10/2008

There is a time of change! There are changes that come along with the time. Time is always ahead of you. You find sometimes yourself unprepared when facing what time brings along. Three months are gone, and I keep myself in here. Here, in this Greenland where everything seems wrecked due to the extreme consuming. The sun pretty much doesn’t heat these people just give them an hello, from time to time. There’s neither summer nor winter, there is rather rain that keeps it cycle along the years. The standard of life it’s high, as well as their consuming. 

Some of those I have met here so far are surrounded by high speed performers. It seems to me, that there is no meaning of tomorrow when I try figure what do those performers think. I wonder sometimes, when I find myself thinking, what it’s about to happen when this fall will be over. All over the world, recession became the most spoken word, in all its time of existence. It came slowly, and softly started to be spoken in some countries. Nowadays around Europe, America, Asia and Oceania, well in the civilized countries, recession became the most spoken word. These countries which keep business within them: smell of recession period! 

I wonder if this is going to be the epilogue of new millennium. We are at some years ahead of the turn over time. Before that a lot of people had the thought that something dread would happen. But by the time that the calendar had changed to 2000 everyone celebrated the beginning of a new millennium. Now, the truth is that new millennium came along on 1/1/2001. The third millennium of our era! 

I certainly don’t believe but I don’t regret thinking about it: this is the machine millennium! This is the millennium which human beings will lose their feelings, without noticing! This is the millennium where drugs will feed humans although they used to be fed with food years ago, in the past millennium. This is the millennium of a human race’s end.    

Sunless

06/02/2009

Hi there,

yesterday, I felt no good, I felt melancholic, I felt insecure, and once more I felt alone…

It’s been a while since I am here. In this small city, surrounded by the snow that sometimes shows up, surrounded by girls who work to grow their lives. I feel them all, but they don’t feel me!

I wrote you some of my words, they were distasteful and yet I couldn’t bear with them all by myself. I spoke about you, I saw you on my pictures, I felt how beautiful you were and how blessed was I in the very first day I met you… 

Would you forgive my words? I know you don’t have the time to do so, we don’t speak the same language anymore, but I remember how good we were writing poetry! 

I don’t see you, but just between these lines…

When I look into the mirror I don’t see you there, not on my back anymore…  

The wire of my phone is broken; I waited your phone call but you had lost your contacts. 

That’s why I got sad yesterday, furthermore the sun didn’t shine, neither didn’t present myself a taste of her grace, or even embraced me with her arms… 

I flew through the clouds…

Sunless!

Agora

20-09-2010

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Hoje estou só.. Estou sozinho em casa, estou sozinho no coraçâo.. Agora sei que em breve vou ter muita gente à minha volta. Tenho receio, tenho a ansiedade da mudança que está à minha frente. Estou de caras com mais um desafio, uma nova experiência que me vai trazer algo de novo. Como se a vida fosse um jogo, e no seu percurso conquistar novas aptidões que mais tarde vais usar para passar ao nivel seguinte. Contudo nem toda a gente está para jogar na vida. Nem para arriscar a sua em viagens. E novos níveis. Olho para estas letras e vejo cara triste, vejo aquele estado de ansiedade partilhada por todos, nos momentos de partida. Vejo caras novas e novas sensações, vejo sorrisos de emoções. 

Eu também fico contente e se pudesse pôr o estado apático de parte, era até capaz de dançar. Agradecer aos deuses e levantar as mãos para o ar. Depois de estar aqui, aonde me encontro agora, de partilhar com a familia momentos de outrora, vejo o dia em que me vou embora. Passei momentos de ternura, passei momentos sozinhos de amargura e sempre que olhava pela janela a noite era escura. O Verão passei-o aqui, transpirando alegria e simpatia aos clientes. Carreguei pesos para me entreter e no fim do dia ia correr. Foi bom estar aqui, foi bom ver-te a ti e olhar para fotografias guardadas de sorriso na cara. Eu agora já não sou ninguem para ter medo. E tambem percebo que tinha que ser assim. 

Montanhas e vales, verde que fumegou e muito levou. O laranja incontrolável e a terra respirava fumo. Eu de longe via, assistia ao consumismo, a desgraça do ser. Aqui, no lugar de Constantim, eu vi muito fumo, eu respirei fumo, eu engoli fumo. Agora vem uma nova época, eu já não vou ver mais fumo daqui, nem aqui vai arder mais, por agora. 

The Orgasm 3D

11/09/2008                                                                                                     

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Every now and then, an orgasm is just such an intense sensation of pleasure. The way all along until you achieve it, is the marvelous feeling. The orgasm is the epilogue of that story. Afterwards there is no turning back, whether you appreciate the recovery of it. Orgasm word is designed to express sex climax, however the climax side effect of a drug in your body is practically the same story. By the time you introduce the drug on your body until you have reached the climax, the epilogue of it, then it’s just a recovering process more or less pre-determined. The big difference between sex orgasm and drug orgasm, is the recovering process and the energy that your body spends to achieve it. 

Apart of drug orgasm and sex orgasm, we have another one, which is familiar to all of us, and still not recognized as an orgasm! Music plays different sensations in our mind, in our hearts and our body. We can cry, we can feel our hair stand, we can feel it even though it’s not physically inside our body. It’s the bridge between soul and mind. It’s the most unknown methods of sound production that makes us react to the spirit of life. Sound, music, melodies, it’s all together the most powerful engine to make a group or a single people free their soul to reach their minds. Independently of our knowledge, experiences and memories, we are set free to reach different states of mind. 

Now when music comes together with drug and sex orgasms, we are about to feel the most powerful feeling whose human body is capable of. The orgasm 3D. 

KTF

4/11/2008

I have been always with this thought in mind: next Monday I will notice my recent employer that I will leave in two weeks time. However I have been delaying and denying. I don’t know which instinct follow; I am more and more uncertain about future…

Yesterday I wrote something due to tell my friends how is going with me. Anyway I didn’t send that mail; eventually I don’t have the trust to send it over. Apparently I don’t have the confidence to tell anyone what the hell is going on my head… as so I find myself closed and alone in order to declare what I have been through… 

The role I am doing now it’s not easy, well it’s not difficult but all its intervenient are tough to get through. If I compare it to my role in that robotic factory in Belgium, this role in the chipper it’s just peace of cake. Nevertheless the surroundings of this role in the chipper and everything in which is involved are not very favorable. 

I left the university unprepared to a challenge of big dimensions, that’s a fact I recognize now but I am sure of what I am now and never had an opportunity to get a challenge of big dimensions. I mean by big dimensions a position in an international company with miscellaneous departments which all together struggle to the same end… 

I wait on that and I keep the faith… 

I cry inside myself when I do cycling under rain and strong wind to get to work, working for couple hours under the minimum wage per hour. 

I listen to music along my way there and back; I try to enjoy my journey!

I write down my pure thoughts and tell myself what nobody else knows! 

I dream with a stream of crystal water which falls in the bluest sea on the dreamy sands of a tropical beach! 

I wait on that and I keep the faith… 

Viagem

20/10/2010

Em viagem me encontro..

O sol é de outono e já se põe.. nota-se pelas cores que descreve no céu.. gosto destas viagens porque apesar de serem longas deixam-me viajar ao meu interior.. posso visionar tudo aquilo por que passei nos últimos momentos da minha vida até esta data. Ao longo da música que trago comigo encontro-me em diferentes sítios, em diferentes horas e faço diferentes juízos... viajo para uma cidade grande.. a grande cidade que é a capital do meu país. Lá tenho outra fase da minha vida à minha espera. Lá tenho um grande desafio e um destino que me põe à prova. Não tenho medo do que vou encontrar, quero apenas ser forte e vingar.. quero ver, e ao passear poder sorrir para o sol.. correr ao lado do monumento dos descobrimentos, quero partilhar sentimentos, que vou criar. Quero mais tarde apanhar o sol e deitar-me ao mar. Quero mostrar que o talento nasce com cada um de nós, e o indivíduo tem que o moldar. Quero mostrar que a vida é bela mas temos que lutar.. vou trabalhar forte e continuar a sonhar. O amanhã está mais perto do que se espera e nada voltará a ser o mesmo.