KTF

4/11/2008

I have been always with this thought in mind: next Monday I will notice my recent employer that I will leave in two weeks time. However I have been delaying and denying. I don’t know which instinct follow; I am more and more uncertain about future…

Yesterday I wrote something due to tell my friends how is going with me. Anyway I didn’t send that mail; eventually I don’t have the trust to send it over. Apparently I don’t have the confidence to tell anyone what the hell is going on my head… as so I find myself closed and alone in order to declare what I have been through… 

The role I am doing now it’s not easy, well it’s not difficult but all its intervenient are tough to get through. If I compare it to my role in that robotic factory in Belgium, this role in the chipper it’s just peace of cake. Nevertheless the surroundings of this role in the chipper and everything in which is involved are not very favorable. 

I left the university unprepared to a challenge of big dimensions, that’s a fact I recognize now but I am sure of what I am now and never had an opportunity to get a challenge of big dimensions. I mean by big dimensions a position in an international company with miscellaneous departments which all together struggle to the same end… 

I wait on that and I keep the faith… 

I cry inside myself when I do cycling under rain and strong wind to get to work, working for couple hours under the minimum wage per hour. 

I listen to music along my way there and back; I try to enjoy my journey!

I write down my pure thoughts and tell myself what nobody else knows! 

I dream with a stream of crystal water which falls in the bluest sea on the dreamy sands of a tropical beach! 

I wait on that and I keep the faith…